Coffee on my desk

Amul coffee tin on the desk,
grows my thirst.
attracts my gaze,
pulls my hands.

Then it asks me to open its lid,
free trapped coffee,
Enclosed since it was pushed,
and locked after produce.

Juicy coffee succeeds
in fetching my intentions.
Liquid fulfills its wish of
going down a human throat,
touching, and brushing intestine.

Then it wins and meets sole purpose,
Of flowing and travelling
Through human body-limbs, chest,
starting from stomach,
from head to tows.

It liberates proudly after
Refreshing human soul,
Leaving somber, tired mind into
Active, alive and kicking one.

* words wrote in leisure in office.

Gift of Life

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Lines scribbled, while I ponder, don’t follow standards of English or grammar. So, can be called as poem.

Beloved, which gift should be offered?
With your policy of accepting none.
Once paths crossed for short time,
spreading puddle of pearls and music in my heart.

You parted; stab of grief that left some marks,
Awake, alarmed and determined to control and be.
Standing at one end of inaccessible turbulent seashore.
winds were blistering skin, warming this blood in search of you.

Days ended, years passed away.
Time will come when Sun will set,
and night will reign over sombre heart,
Struggle to manoeuvre fumbling breath.

When there was no purpose to be,
I received one to be part of cosmic turmoil,
To hide my face and look your cherubic grin.
So was your gifted presence somewhere in the corner.

World runs like daily treadmill of
getting down the train and chasing another.
Walking or running, I see that horizon,
And your face floating in the mirage.

Safeguarding my presence with full of faith.
When rarely anything is ruled by man.
Goal is to sustain in greater torment,
Staying among selfish ghosts and illness of heart.

Time line of childhood, youth and ageing.
Showing this rhythm of forlorn life.
No furtive meetings, only fight, disconnect and patchwork.
No one is sure I might fade away in next wind.
Leaves floating down branches to reach the earth.

I keep walking, watching colourful canvass,
And your smile, lively presence over it.
I wonder, are you there also,
Your thoughts rekindle my heart,
Strength, vigor rushes into shivering presence.

Story is not unique, I was not alone.
I sailed the ship, spoke with strangers,
More troubled in their own complex puzzles.
Journey leaves me with universal grace.

It rains somewhere at unknown place,
water flows down over dry riverbed.
Birds flock, fly out with renewed glow,
Trees sprout and harvest blooms.
River and its continuous charity!

I welcome you. I welcome you.
Majesty, Let me be yours and pure.
I will sing lasting smile and joyful time.
I shall never know you taught to be myself.
I dedicate my offerings, devotion.
Strong, robust on its own.

Art of Knowing, Feeling and Doing

A. Why do you think we have so much inertia in our life? Have you ever regretted that by not taking an action in time on an issue of significant social importance, you lost a bit of your self-respect? If yes, illustrate
B. Is it necessary that people should have big goals in life? What is wrong with ordinary aspirations, average expectations and live life as it comes?
C. What really is the source of fortitude in life? How does it originate and how does one sustain it?
D. Have you learned anything striking, innovative or transformative from someone you didn’t expect?
E. What will this experience of in-course add to your life? What special skill, insights, or ideas will you like to contribute?
F. Pl describe your qualification, learning, future directions, and journey so far in maximum 150 words.

After answering above self searching question, I got opportunity to attend 10 hours un-course-‘Art of Knowing, Feeling and Doing

We live in noise and clutter of day to day life. We are always immersed in our own thoughts and many personal or work related problems. Hundreds of thought enter and leave our brain. This habit pattern has disabled inherent sense to hear sounds in nature and to realize natural activities going around. Professor gives his own example, ‘While I walk towards classrooms every day, I can see the weeds or plants growing gradually behind the trees. I can understand what is going on among the group of sparrows those start chirping in garden besides house.” So, it’s true that, those who have least seem to care most! Similarly, We look at so many things, but we don’t’ see them. So, seeing does not always believing. But beliefs can influence what we see. What we think we should see, but we don’t. We can trigger our knowing by our feeling”
There is a famous story in Mahabharata. Guru Dronacharya took test of archery in his class. Pointing towards a tree, he asked his disciples, “Answer me, what can you see?”
Yudhishtir answered, “I can see whole cosmos! I see trees, sky and everything surrounded by it.”
Few other disciples answered that they look at many different things.

When Arjuna’s turn came, he said, “I can see only the eye of that bird. I can see nothing apart from that.”
How did it happen that same thing is observed differently by different disciples. Arjuna did task of focusing his mind towards the bird. If we asked who do you want to become between Arjuna and Yudhishtir. Most of us wanted to become Arjuna. Why do we need Yudhishtirs then? People like him are required to look at bigger picture, wider perspectives and connections between different facts.
Sometime in past, group of people in a congregation have been asked how much experience do they have. Many answered having experience of 10 years, 20 years of doing x. Do you believe 10 years experience of an adult is more is always more worthwhile than 3 years experience by young student? No. Most of the time, we have much experience of doing things slowly.

There is a concept called, ‘Reverse mentoring’. Philosophers searching for right answer, ask their questions to children. Children react in a very naïve manner. Answers come from them will not be interrupted by any kind of feeling or distractions. Children also have ability to please their parents to get what they wanted. They can manipulate their parents through jibes, dramas or acting.

Heuristics are principles or thumb rules that will not require complete and clear understanding but these are thumb rule that will serve your purpose. For example, when you are walking in a hazy atmosphere and unable to see what is ahead of 2 feet distance. You want to reach mountain top. If you take steps upward and forward, you will for sure reach top once. Similar kind of heuristics is simple but very strong and robust.

When kids are nurtured in our culture, what do we do? From time when children become able to understand, we want them to imitate our gestures as quickly as possible. We wish them to affirm what we do. Then children make different kinds of faces thinking people around will become happy. How ironic it’s that we groom kids to imitate and do not allow them to innovate.

When human being takes birth, first sense or feeing any human being understand is a touch. It senses a touch and then feels it. Touch is very primordial and fundamental feeling. Touch is so true feeling that it is sensed by all millions of species observed during birth.
We started discovering knowledge from an early stage. It has actually impacted our understanding. There are many activities, movements are happening in nature, but we do not have instinct to realize them. Two month baby can distinguish between touch of a mother from that of other. That baby can understand if it in the lap or cradle within fractions. How could it possible for 2 month baby? Similar instinct also exists in birds and animals. When any snake or an enemy tries to approach flock of birds, all birds fly away together. This happens as soon as any single bird senses pray approaching the group. We lose instinct that comes endowed with us from birth? As we grow physically, we have lose most our abilities, senses that we are endowed with us on the moment of birth. Instinct is present in not only humans but also all other live species. Looking at the evolution mankind, if we draw a map of human body in which – Size of each part of body will be in proportion of number of signal brain receives from it.

humanBrain In the above map, we see size of hand much bigger. It means, from the evolution of mankind, human brain has received maximum signals received in life were from hands. Legs are smaller because it has been used just to walk or kick. Hands were rigorously used in different activities and workout. That is why human hands have been evolved at much higher level. First humanoid was evolved around 7000 years back. First human ancestors used to utilize all four limbs for walking, but later started usage of front limbs for doing work.

Take for example, men whose work involved activities of hands have developed much higher level of thinking. JRD Tata, Saint Thomas both were carpenter. Great saint Kabir was weaver. When they wrote poems while working, their couple of lines was very rich in meaning. They could summarize great wisdom in few words.

If we look at culture in last 3 thousand years, dress that women wear doesn’t have packets. But male dress has packets. It’s an indication that women were doing work all the time such as weaving, breaking seeds, cooking, and all other home chores. So, we conclude that instinct of woman has been developed to much higher level than that of men. Women sense and feel much quickly and intuitively.

Knowing-Feeling and doing need not be in this order. Children or women feel first and then understand it. What matters whether we take action after we knowing and feeling. Lack of action has developed so much inertia in our life. We do not take action over things that really matters to us. Yess. That’s true!

But why don’t we take actions?

This session has helped to understand why we have so much inertia in life. If you are told to list down 10 things that you will complete in a day, it will happen few of these will not be started at all. Even if these matter most to you, you will find reasons to avoid them. You have defined your goals, tasks. But you still don’t execute. So, there must be some reason behind this inertia, which prevents me from taking an action.

If we look at good executives, we will find they will really feel uneasy if actions were not performed. They understand when to intensify their feelings that will enable to take actions. Great achievers are able to generate right kind of feeling at the right moment. They can dispel wrong, evil some feeling to touch their soul.
There are nine different kinds of feelings viz. love, Anger, Hatred, compassion, fear, Comic etc. These are called Navrasas in Sanskrit.
Professor explains about Samvedana, “Samvedana is kind of feeling in which I sense the feelings of other as intense as other person feels. Then that pain doesn’t remain only his pain. It becomes my pain as well. There is no chance of having little less. Sam=equal, vedana=pain. Now, cause of problem is now also your problem. The great selfless actions and revolutions have been triggered by people who were able to sense the pain EXACTLY as suffered by others. So, the potential generated by those feelings were very high.”
HOWEVER, if any start feeling responsible for everybody and everything that is wrongs in the world, the emotions will become so much high and intolerable that person will not have single moment of peace. You will be most emotionally charged and burdened that you will no longer able to live peacefully. Person will withdraw from doing action.
This dilemma is same as faced by Arjuna before war of Mahabharata. Arjuna looked at all his family- brothers, cousins, teacher, grandfather with whom he has to fight in war. He becomes helpless and starts thinking to refrain from following his duty. This is one of the major reason that stop people from taking action. Every day, we become Arjuna inside us and we have to fight with him. It’s one of major reasons to procrastinate things and become irresponsible.
Little bit of schizophrenia is necessary in our life. Symptom is an inability to connect between real world and imaginary world. It’s an ability to disconnect you from real world for some time. It’s necessary for human being to take effective actions. Concluding, To be able to connect with action, you should also be able to disconnect. There will time come, you will need to say ‘Okay. I have done well. You are right.’
Some time, few might have responsibilities that will be so much that you have to be ruthless for not taking action over few. Human senses are like oscillations. Feelings move from one extreme to other extreme one of pendulum. Pendulum is attached in path by feelings such as attachment, responsibility, cognitive energy. There could be one moment of pendulum when ratio between feeling and lack of feeling, pendulum will move in a direction of tangent. Object will move out of orbit once, it loses its different gravitational pulls from center. The tangential moment is what we miss in life. Rocket, missile can move up in the space only after it is able to overcome material attractions in its life. This shows, when you are able to ignore material ties and pulls in life, you will move ahead and there will be no hurdle or roadblock.
Professor tells a story from a novel ‘Magnificent Obsession’ by Lloyd C. Douglas. Confused man asks a priest about relationships. When one build a house, he is required to use stone, bricks, mortar. While building a well, we put a brick over other. But while building relationship, you put one brick into other. When every time relationship breaks, part of that brick is gone. So, it’s you who have to decide how many and which people you have to build relationship. When we think so much about all the people, we end up serving no one. We lose our accountability and integrity. So, there is a famous saying ‘Choose your own bonds’. People who did well, they chose feelings, bonds wisely.
Imagine, your chariot is being pulled by number of horses, running all in different directions. Your horses are most active, strongest and hardworking, genuine, calm. Chariot will not move a single feet ahead as they are pulling in them in all 360 angles. We are prevented from doing by knowing and too much. So, it’s also required to know what NOT to know!
Beauty of flute is that what makes a difference is what is left out of it and not what is remained inside. If flute wish to accumulate air inside, music will not come out.

Consider an Air instrument such as violin or guitar. When there is too much tension in the cord, it will break. If there is no tension in the cord, it will not play.

For a beautiful sound to occur, what is required situation is ‘Middle way’. The same path has been mentioned by Buddha long ages back.

Buddha said,
Do not believe something just because it has been passed along and retold for many generations.
Do not believe something merely because it has become a traditional practice.
Do not believe something simply because it is well-known everywhere.
Do not believe something just because it is cited in a text.
Do not believe something solely on the grounds of logical reasoning.
Do not believe something merely because it accords with your philosophy.
Do not believe something because it appeals to ‘common sense’.
Do not believe something just because you like the idea.
Do not believe something because the speaker seems trustworthy.

Wisdom to take from this is that never become satisfied with what you know. Always there will be possibility of ambiguity. So we should better leave ourselves in ambiguity.
Principle of Randomness: We have played many games during childhood. Why there are many games that were based on random number, games such as snake and ladder. You become happy as move onto number 97. Now, you throw a dice and come down to 11 as snake eats you in next game. What was in your hand? We play many such games. They tell that there are fair chances of winning as well as loosing. So, there is should be no reason to worry. Our duty is to be ready for next game and try.
When a possibility to win is low, we should try. And when possibility to win is lowest, we must try. Winning and losing are part of life.

Equanimity: It’s a balanced state of mind; you are not affected by good or bad happening to you. You do not get wet even being immersed in water. Equianimate person is called as ‘SthitPradnya’ in Geeta.

There is a problem that College campus authority to solve. Security System has to be improved without hiring any new one guard. Solution would be to randomize the places of security guards. For example, security will toss a coin, if it turns head, he will move right. If it turns tails, he will move left. Such possibility will distribute level of security around the campus. Criminal will have no chance of knowing where the security guards are standing, resulting in improved efficiency.
Having Childlike curiosity and instinct:

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How to have childlike curiosity and instinct?

Professor has invited Chaaya, 12 year old girl from a village near Gandhi-Nagar. We got advice and suggestion from her insights during lecture upon how could she generate curiosity to find out unsolved problem and find the solution over the same. Height of tap was higher than her height. she and many other small children had difficulty in drinking water from tap at higher height. She suggested tilting water taps pipe so that small kids can also drink water as can taller ones.

After her appreciation and taking some insights we brainstormed how could we sustain the creative and innovative instinct within us.

 

Tomas Tranströmer

Landscape with Suns

The sun glides out from behind the house
positions itself mid-street
and breathes on us
with its scarlet wind.
Innsbruck I must leave you.
But tomorrow
a glowing sun stands
in the half-dead gray forest
where we have to work and live.

It is one of the beautiful picture sketch by Tomas Transtomer, a swedish writer. He has won Nobel prize for literature of this year 2011.  As I heard this news, I went through few of his poems, translated into English from here.  Most of his work deals with war, life and nature. It creates a vivid picture in front of eyes while reading between the lines.

I will try to go through his work more in detail if I get a time and opportunity at right time. I am happy to note down my feelings about his poems.

MF Hussain Dead

Notorious artist, who has been exiled out of India due to his loathsome, anti-Hindu painting, has left his dead body in London Hospital due to aging. He could live till the age of 95 before his death.
MF Husain born and brought up in India, but he left his controversial paintings behind. Rubbish brain has painted naked and obscene sketches of BharatMata (India as Goddess) and Hindu goddesses. Unfortunately, Hindu community failed to burn him along with his blasphemous paintings.
His few obscene paintings found in 1996 which were originally created in 1970 were anti-secular. He has exaggerated Islam and humiliated all Hindu Gods. His has incited all Hindu people in India. To save the life, he flied out of India and received citizenship of Qatar. He was living out of India from 2006.
He was awarded Padmashri, Padm-vibhushan and Padm-Bhushan, having such honor from the nation he sketched naked BharatMata. This shows his boiling chauvinist mind.

Paingings of MF Hussain: link1, link2

127 Hours

I watched Movie “127 Hours” with my friends Debjit, Senthil,Piyush in the movie theatre nearby my workplace “Gold Adlabs”. It’s terrific movie! Horrible scenes are taken. It is based on real story and novel ‘Between a rock and a hard place”. Aron Ralston enthusiastic mountaineer gets stuck within rocks for more than four days. To save life, he ends up amputating his hand with row knife.

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127 hours Movie

Book “Between a rock and a hard place” by Aron Ralston starts with this lines from HOMER’s “The Odyssey”.

But once your crew has rowed you past the Sirens
A choice of routes is yours. I cannot advise you
Which to take, or lead you through it all –
You must decide for yourself—
But I can tell you the ways of either course.
On one side beetling cliffs shoot up, and against them
Pound the huge roaring breakers of blue-eyed Amphitrite-
The Clashing Rocks they’re called by all the blissful gods.
No ship of men has ever approached and slipped past—
Always some disaster – big timers and sailors’ corpses
Whirled away by the waves and lethal blasts of fire.
On the other side loom two enormous crags…
One thrust into the vaulting sky its jagged peak,
Hooded round with dark cloud that never leaves—
And halfway up that Cliffside stands a fog-bound cavern
Gaping west toward Erebus, realm of death and darkness—
Past it, great Odysseus, you should steer your ship.


Scylla lurks inside it—the yelping horror,
Yelping, no louder than any suckling pup
But she’s a grisly monster, I assure you.
She had twelve legs, all writhing, dangling down
And six long swaying necks, a hideous head on each,
Each head barbed with a triple row of fangs, thickset,
Packed tight –and armed to the hilt with black death!
…with each of her six heads she snatches up
A man from the dark-prowed craft and whisks him off.
The other crag is lower –you will see, Odysseus—
Atop it a great fig-tree rises, shaggy with leaves;
Beneath it awesome Charybdis gulps the dark water down.
Three times a day she vomits it up, three times she gulps it down,
That terror ! Don’t be there when the whirlpool swallows down—
Not even the earthquake god could save you from disaster.
No, hug Scylla’s crag—sail on past her—top speed!
Better by far to lose six men and keep your ship
Than lose your entire crew.
-HOMER, The Odyssey

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